Christmas is Creeping Up

I love the Christmas season! Ever since I was a kid, I would always look forward to it almost everyday. Of course I was after the mountains of gifts. What child doesn't. But I'm also kinda sad that as you get older, you feel obliged to grow up. You get less and less gifts every year. My mom is kinda developing this "one-gift" policy since I'm old na so I always make sure this "one-gift" is really expensive. Gosh, pretty soon it's gonna be a "no-gift" policy. I better milk it while I can.

Ooh and since it's Christmas, that means lots of parties and family gatherings. And these mean lotsa food! Yum! I'm so gonna gain weight again but I think Christmas is the wrong time to diet anyway. It's like being chaste on your honeymoon dontcha think?

And for some of my friends who've been asking, my sis finally found out she's having a girl! Which makes shopping all the more easier now coz shopping for neutral colors was a pain in the a#s! So now the baby is gonna be named Ciara. Nice name.

On a sadder note, What do you guys think of that meningitis like disease that's sweeping the Philippines? Well not really sweeping but still, it's time to be alarmed if more than one person has it. I've been so scared to touch, eat or smell anything ever since I got hooked on this new show "Medical Investigation." It's like CSI but the bad guy is some kind of disease or epidemic. Gosh, who knew you can turn your entire body blue by just putting salt on scrambled eggs. Watch the show and you'll see what I'm talking about. I usually download the episodes but they just started showing it here on RPN 9 on sundays.

Well that's all for now, I'll try to answer most of the comments tomorrow. Thanks for reading!

Maybe it's coz I'm fat

Ok, It's been almost a month since I last updated but I have a very good excuse! I just have to think of one first. Haha. But seriously, a lot of things have been happening this past month and I don't even know if I should write about all of them. Oh well maybe I'll just write about some. My tito passed away last week. It's really sad because he was a really good man. He was a gentleman, a father, a very good uncle, and a loving friend. Normally, deaths don't really affect me much because I don't see them happen. I just usually go to the wake, pay my respects, and just feel sad about it. It's just different this time because I saw him die. No, not in some morbid sick way that some of you are thinking. Here's the story: My sister and I were in Makati Medical and we had plans to visit our cousin who got into an accident on his vespa and after which, we were gonna visit our tito who had fallen into a coma at his house. Most of our family members were at his house so we thought we'd keep our cousin company first since we thought no one was watching him. As we were about to enter the elevator, my sister got a call. She didn't tell me any details so I assumed that he died so we would have to postpone visiting our cousin and rush off to my tito's house. Here I was stressed to death (pardon the pun) driving like a madman just so we can make it in time to see him before they cart off his body or whatever (though i really had no intention of looking at a dead body), then as I was near my tito's house, my sister tells me that he's not dead yet! WTF?! He's just "going." Great. As much as I want to be sympathetic to my family's loss, watching someone die is way worse than looking at a dead body. I'll just skip the sad details and just say I saw him take his last breath and I watched as his wife and children and the rest of my family members cry uncontrollably. I didn't cry. I couldn't. I never cried at a funeral in my life. When my lola died, I don't know if I genuinely cried or I just forced the tears to come out of me because everyone else was wailing and they might think I'm so emotionless. When my tito had his funeral 2 days ago. I was deadset on imbibing all possible emotions and to allow myself to cry. Everyone was crying. I couldn't. The most I could do was get my eyes slightly red but I think that was because I was starting to get sick at that time because of my cough, cold, fatigue, lack of sleep etc. So I have come to the conclusion that my friend was right before in assessing me. I cannot show emotion in public. I cannot cry, show affection, and sometimes it annoys me when my parents or my sis try to be all cutesy and huggy and call me cutesy names in public. Am I weird? I guess I just don't like to call attention to myself. This is so weird because I've always wanted to be in the limelight yet sometimes I do everything not to get noticed. Hmmm....maybe I have a problem. Or maybe it's because I'm fat! I always try to find a way to blame my fat. Speaking of which, one of my titas is not my friend anymore! While this whole dying thing with my tito was occuring in his room, this somewhat "hefty" aunt of mine directs this comment towards me: "Hay, I don't know ba, their parents are so thin but these children are so fat!" Hello, that's the pot calling the kettle black! Growl. Oh well it's situations like these that make me realize that it's totally ok for fat people to call other people fat. It's therapeutic.

So the funeral is over and done with and now I'm sick. I had to go home early because I felt like I was gonna hurl something the size of Cadillac Escalade. I won't go into the gory details. I will just say that bedrest is so dang boring. I was losing my mind yet I was too weak to do anything. Gosh, when I get sick, the ailments always have to come in groups. Maybe it's coz I'm fat. Oh well, I'm feeling better now except for severe nasal and throat congestion. Now I'm off to my tito's 9th day novena mass. I feel bad that i had to miss the birthday party of my cousin's girlfriend yesterday. I could never resist free food.

Gosh, I missed so many movies! I didn't even get to see the Grudge yet and I guess they stopped showing it. Weird. Oh well, there's still the Incredibles, the Forgotten. and the Manchurian Candidate. Time to make kulit friends. Haven't seen a lot of them for a really long time! Well, maybe that's coz I'm fat.